It’s the end of October and, therefore, the end of ‘30 Writes in 30 Days‘.
So, how did I do?
Well, not as badly as it may seem to readers of this blog. Although I only wrote 5 posts here I’ve been setting up my new blog Gillian Pearce Painting and Stuff and wrote 6 posts there plus a couple of other bits on clients’ blogs. So, including this one I managed 13 “writes” and that’s 12 more than the previous month!
But . . . it wasn’t much of an experiment really. Just a confirmation of how these things usually go for me, i.e. I make a grand gesture which seems good at the time and then loose interest. I’m not saying that’s a bad thing. Just that I didn’t learn anything new. I could have tried to make myself write more I suppose but I wasn’t really that bothered. But . . . I am curious about the balance between letting things unfold and making things happen, something I’m specifically exploring in relation to my painting. To that end I’m playing with moving in the direction of making some money from “art”.
Please visit the new blog and sign up to receive updates if you’re interested. I suspect I’ll be writing there more frequently than here but we’ll see.
Hmmmmm. Not true really. All I did was take some paintings to a friend who’d offered to photograph them for me. That’s it. That’s all I can truly say about it.
It’s only a big step if I choose to see it that way.
It’s only connected to selling paintings if I choose to see it that way and project into the future. It does seem a logical connection, mind you, since the intention is to get them photographed and then add them to a Print On Demand site. But that may never happen.
Without the stories I make up around this simple action all that remains is a bunch of paintings sitting in an office waiting to be photographed. Even that I don’t know for sure. Maybe they’ve already been photographed. Maybe they’ve been stolen and are no longer in the office. Maybe someone’s spilt coffee over them and they’re now ruined (or improved ha, ha!).
When I stop to notice I am amazed at how many stories we weave around and through our lives. It makes me smile.
On Friday “I took a big step forward”. Just four days later I’m surprised I ever saw it that way.
It’s day 4 of ’30 Writes in 30 Days’ and the more discerning among you will have noticed that there didn’t appear to be a “write” for Day 3. Except, of course, you probably never gave it a thought, your having your own lives and all that.
This is what I was aiming for myself, not having to “give it a thought” but simply letting the writing arise. However, yesterday I fell off the wagon, so to speak. Suddenly I was thinking and thinking about needing to write something. The whole experiment had become an object in it’s own right, a “thing” to be thought about and controlled. And, not surprisingly I found no inspiration. Maybe I’ll put that on a painting:
“Thinking is an Inspiration Killer!”
I even woke up in the night thinking about what not writing or writing meant and thinking about thinking. First thing I dashed off an email to a friend who has joined in the challenge saying:
“I seem to have turned this ’30 Writes in 30 Days’ into a thing. Kept waking up in the night and thinking about it. It’s not supposed to be like that at all. It’s just supposed to flow!
I seem to be trying too hard to think of something to write. Dog with a bone stuff.
Am going to have a shower and wash my hair. Then breakfast and then maybe a bit of vacuuming and, hopefully, it will lose it’s grip and I’ll feel inspired again. But I guess the trick is being Ok with not feeling inspired . . . except that’s just a load of different thinking. Sigh!
Back to basics . . . I seem to be stuck in my thinking but it’s OK. It will pass.”
That last sentence is the key. It’s one of the valuable lessons I have learnt from the Three Principles:
- once I really get caught up in thinking about a particular problem/situation I won’t find a way out through my thinking and
- if I just let it be, the thinking frenzy will pass of it’s own accord and peace and inspiration will return.
This morning I have shown that to myself again. Just the shower was long enough to let my thinking settle. I didn’t need the breakfast or the vacuuming! Inspiration has returned and “write” number 3 has pretty much written itself.
This is what I’m noticing more and more. It really is OK to let things just unfold. Inspiration is always there, waiting to be acted upon. More and more I’m noticing how simple, wonderful and exciting life can be when I pay less attention to the thinking that’s accompanied by stressful feelings and more attention to what I feel inspired to do when my thoughts are calm.
So it’s 4.30 p.m. and I haven’t done my “write” for today. I’ve done lots of writing – emails to arrange lunch and coffee dates, enquiries about ceilidh bands and venues, feedback to clients, but nothing so far that counts towards my ’30 Writes In 30 Days’ experiment. So here’s hoping this will develop into “write” number 2 . . .
The title “On Doing Things In The Right Order” came to me when I found myself on the First Art America website creating an account and thinking about what to write on my profile page. I was planning on counting the profile as my “write” number 2 but it suddenly struck me that I was creating an account on a site that sells art when I don’t actually have any items ready to sell!
This is where it gets interesting.
If I look at this situation from my conventional thinking then I’d have to draw the conclusion that I was doing things in the wrong order or, at the very least, in an untimely manner. But, if I look at it from a more open-minded perspective then I can decide that opening the account without any paintings ready is perfect timing since it’s led to this blog post and I now have “write” number 2. I choose the latter.
This is a perfect example of how I’m trying to live my life these days, namely:
- just doing the next thing that feels right
- not worrying whether or not that next thing makes sense to me, and
- being open to “next things” that were previously unknown to me or, in the past, not considered significant or important enough for me to do.
I’m noticing that this seems to result in a much more relaxed and interesting life. I find myself organising stuff that, this time last week, I had no idea I would be doing.
Looking back I can see that many of the mental conflicts I’ve experienced have been where I had an idea to do or not do something and rather than just go with that I started analysing it because the idea didn’t make sense. An example, is when I was struggling to decide whether or not to return to Phoenix for the end of the coaching programme. A couple of months before the end I started thinking that I didn’t want to go back but it made no sense to me. So I spent weeks struggling with myself trying to make it make sense and, in the end, I didn’t go anyway.
I would have saved myself a lot of struggle and heartache if I’d just followed my initial thought/feeling and left it at that.
So these days, when I have an idea that doesn’t make sense but feels right I try and insert a full-stop (period for US readers) before my mind gets to “but”. The Result? A lot less wasted energy and more unexpected, delightful outcomes.
A couple of days ago I woke up in the early hours hearing a voice that said simply “write”. At the same time I saw a picture of the word “WRITE” in capital letters with a full-stop. Pretty weird but none the less intriguing.
There are a couple of things I’ve been thinking about writing recently – more posts on this blog and a long overdue update to my ebook ‘7 Steps To A Depression Free Life‘. Today is the 1st of October and a Monday so it seems an auspicious time to listen to a disembodied voice and start a writing project. Cue the spooky music.
I like the sound of ’30 “writes” in 30 days’ but then I always like the sound of numbers and a fixed timeline for a project. However, I don’t think I’ve ever completed one that I set up that way. The idea of a “project” feels too constraining for me these days so this is the beginning of an exploration entitled ’30 “writes” in 30 days’.
I have no preconceived ideas of what the “writes” will be but I will endeavour to report something each day this month.
If you’d like to join me (and I’d LOVE it if you would) please leave a comment. Do that today and it could count as your first “write”. Then comment on my future posts and add what you’ve written that day or post a link if you’ve added your “write” to a website.
I’ve no idea where this is going but it’s always more fun to be sharing the journey . . .