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The exciting news is . . . I’m in! I’ve been accepted into Ed Dale’s mentoring programme and the first 1 : 1 session is on Thursday.
The first step was to create a pre-start questionnaire which was a little unnerving since a number of the questions didn’t really apply to my situation. I’m feeling a bit nervous about how Ed will view my approach but am also not going to waste any energy worrying about it in advance.
As I said when I applied:
I am fascinated by what makes people “tick” and why some of us are successful and others not etc. etc. AND I am fascinated by technology and the internet. I would love to be able to combine the 2.
That is the area I’m really interested in – where the 2 worlds collide. How can you be successful when it’s not lack of information/a system that’s the problem. It’s your habits/beliefs/behaviours/personality etc? And, can the “you” bit be built into the learning process? How can technology help us do that?
Apart from combining two fields I enjoy working in there is another exploration that’s important to me and that is living from the inside out versus living from the outside in.
My previous attempts at setting up an internet marketing business have been externally focussed. That is, the motivation has been the money I wanted to earn (external outcomes) and the tactics that would get me there. To be fair most of the courses are taught this way and after trying and failing at a number of them I realised that my failure wasn’t due to what the courses were teaching but to a lack of consciousness about what I was doing and why I was doing it.
I’m not alone. Thousands of people have spent thousands of dollars chasing the internet marketing dream but relatively few have succeeded. The money and the ease with which it can be generated attracts us but it is often an habitual reaction to the idea that money will make us happy. Even if that were true, we don’t stop and consider whether or not the promises of the get rich dream is what we want anyway. So we find ourselves chasing a dream that’s not really ours and then feel upset when we don’t succeed. The consequence of focussing exclusively on external goals without matching them to our internal values makes it impossible to keep going when the going gets though. So we abandon whatever we’ve been trying and move on to the next shiney, new toy.
Having tired of that I moved back to coaching last year but unwittingly kept loosing the plot when I made the same mistake, albeit in a different arena. Setting exclusively external goals was a road that led to low energy and confusion. But it also led to great learning.
So combining, the lessons of the two I can say that a lack of external structure leaves me directionless, listless and feeling unfulfilled while “enforced” structure, by way of a plan I’ve concocted (or bought) for it’s own sake, leaves me bored , unable to keep my commitments to myself and feeling unfulfilled.
So, I am approaching my year of mentoring differently.
Part of the deal for acceptance on the programme was to agree to create measurable, specific goals. Starting out they will be about building a subscribers list of people who are interested in exploring and consciously creating their lives and who enjoy reading and commenting here.
The mentoring will create a framework within which I can explore and challenge those beliefs/stories I tell myself that hold me back. The numbers will give me something more concrete to measure and to challenge myself with.
Even before the programme started I confronted the discipline of writing (or lack thereof) and committed myself to my 15 minutes a day goal. And, I noticed my tendency of constantly waiting for something else to happen before I begin and have made choices to start anyway.
I see this year as an opportunity to learn from a master in his field, to take a curious peep into a world I know little of, to hang out with interesting and inspiring people to challenge myself and to keep stepping outside my comfort zone. Internet marketing then becomes the structure within which I can experiment and dance with life. I am excited about what I will create.
Well that’s it. I’m doomed. My Facebook vanity URL has gone. Another Gillian Pearce beat me to it.
I’ve never really been that interested in using Facebook but my during a girls night in recently, my daughter asked “What one person would you like to see again, from your past, that you’ve lost contact with”? And that got me thinking about loads of people I’ve lost touch with and wondering what they’re doing now. So I thought it was maybe time to track them down and Facebook seemed as good a place as any to start.
But then I suddenly switched into internet marketing mode (old habits die hard) and I just knew I had to have my vanity URL. Basically, that’s your name at the end of www.facebook.com And, woe is me when I tried to sign up for it, not only do you need to have 100 fans (which I obviously don’t, being new) but it was already taken. So now what am I going to do? The more I stared at the usuper’s page the more essential to my well-being that URL became. Never mind the fact that I don’t even know what to do with a vanity URL anyway. I might need it in the future, dammit!
Which reminds me of all the stuff piled up in my garage that I’m keeping just in case I need it at some future date. And all the stuff saved on my computer just in case. And all the notes I’ve written in all the endless notebooks from seminars I’ve long since forgotten I attended. And all the other physical manifestations of my “just in case” life. And I find myself wondering if there is an inner equivalent. Is all this holding onto stuff merely a reflection of my holding on internally? And, if so, what am I holding onto?
Hmmmm. Need to ponder that a bit. I’ll get back to you . . .
Well, not really unbounded but excitement none the less. I made my first “tweet” last Friday!
I’ve been feeling pretty low since my return from the Scanners Retreat in France, going back and forth about what I should do next. Then I stumbled across “What the Bleep Do We Know” and decided to send a tweet about it.
I’ve been wanting to give Twitter a go, ever since I heard about it more than 2 years ago, but couldn’t work out how best to use it. Not that I know now of course but at least I’ve made a start. In fact I made another 2 tweets today, in reference to Dr Joe Dispenza’s work.