Mood

Fearing Death

I’ve sometimes had a suspicion that part of the reason I struggle with living my life to the full is because I have a fairly pronounced fear of death. I’ve assumed this came about as a result of losing a brother and my dad in sudden and unexpected circumstances. In fact, it was suggested recently, that I might benefit from therapy around this issue but I resist that idea. My idea of therapy is old school, i.e. the disease model, which basically says that there is something wrong with me that needs to be fixed. I’ve had enough of this fixing over the years and, nowadays, prefer to see myself as someone already whole. A little lost maybe but not someone in need of fixing. So, I was interested to see this quote:

“When you say you fear death, you are really saying that you fear you have not lived your true life. This fear cloaks the world in silent suffering.” by David Viscott.

Profound stuff!

There is definately an element within me that fears I am not living my “true life” and the fact that the world might suffer as a result spurs me on to find what I need to be doing next. The quote came from a free chapter of the book “100 Ways to Motivate Yourself” by Steve Chandler and he suggests that in order to find out what your “true life” could be, you need to look for clues in whatever makes you happy . And if, like me you’re not sure what makes you happy you have to keep asking yourself the question – “What makes me happy?” and keep asking it until you know.

This is important he says, because “In the answer to that question, you’ll discover where you can be of most service. You can’t live your true life if you’re not serving people, and you can’t serve people very well if you are not excited about what you’re doing.”

So I’m going to create a new page and keep it updated as I learn more about the things that make me happy. I’m also going to check out more of Steve Chandler’s stuff 🙂